I know an amazing woman named Anissa Burnley. Last week she wrote a blogpost entitled "On the Road to 26." It was in this post that she challenged me to no longer ask "What's next?" but rather to enjoy living life right where I am at.
Over the last two years, as Kris and I have made a life for ourselves in South Korea, I have consistently made the statement, "I can't wait to get back to California so we can start our lives." And now, as I have been sending out job applications and posting my resume to various sites I find myself too asking, "What's next?" Will Kris, Sadie Rose and I be living in Northern or Southern California? Will I be working full time or part time? In what type of a home will we live so I can start "making a home?" These are some of the questions that often fill my mind.
But once again, the Lord has convicted me--an occasion which seems to occur more frequently as I learn to surrender to his will and trust his plan for my life. I have become aware--Kris, Sadie Rose and I, we have ALREADY started our lives. Our life as a family has ALREADY begun. We are living the life the Lord has for us in this very moment. And we have ALREADY made a home, for our home is not confined to these four walls of blue texture (so nicely done by my awesome husband). Whether South Korea or California, we ALREADY have a life together and a home. And so, through the strength that comes only from the Lord, I must release this train of thinking, and embrace the life that the Lord has called me to live right now.
Will I stop asking "What's next?" Yes and no. I will stop asking in order to plan and prepare for what I deem to be an appropriate use of my life. But rather, I will ask with the anticipation and expectation that God will do great things every step of the way. As he provides for our lives, each moment I am excited as I consider what he has next for us. But, I should always be mindful not to forget the moment in which we are currently blessed.
So, to my dear friend Anissa, thank you for including me in your journey, your road to 26, and may the Lord continue to convict and challenges us both as we live our lives for him, on the road to 27. And along the way, may we never forget that life has already begun!
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